We had planned to go to Kansas and spend the whole week with my husbands family, we were very much looking forward to it. Then the rear axle on Dustin's Jeep went out. So there went those plans. He and a friend tore it all apart and another friend came and picked it up to take it to their shop and fix it. We just got it back and now he has to replace the brakes and put the Jeep back together.
Then my windshield completely cracked from one side to the other due to the ice we received Saturday. Awesome. I'm looking into getting a new windshield now, the crack is continuing to spread…
We were supposed to host my family at our house Saturday to try and have as semi normal Christmas as possible. Then the ice happened. So that got moved to Monday, which was only because we were now unable to go to Kansas.
Then Christmas eve we were told Christian was going to be heading into surgery to replace the shunt they had put in his head a week prior. Luckily as I was on my way to the hospital they sad they decided to wait 2-3 days to see if the antibiotics would take care of the infection in his shunt. Excited to report, it did! No surgery needed now! So thankful for that, he had been throwing up and had a fever pretty much everyday for a week.
Christmas Eve, Dustin and I were invited over to Kristal's house to spend the evening with her family. It was perfect, we had the best time and it really helped me to get my mind off things. She prepared a beautiful dinner for all of us!
We ended up having a great time on Monday evening with my family. It was nice to have us all together, we just wish Christian didn't have to be in the hospital and was here to enjoy his favorite holiday. I tried to make everything as comfortable and cozy for my family as possible, I wanted my parents to just enjoy themselves for a few hours.
Sunday night, Dustin and I attended Christmas services at our church. It was wonderful as always, I always look so forward to it. At the very end of the service, the church staff and all of us quietly sang Silent Night as we held glow sticks in the dark room. I couldn't help but cry as I thought how 1 year ago my family attended with us and we were doing the exact same thing- singing Silent Night and holding our glow sticks. I thought back to last year and Christian standing there with me, and how I never would have thought "In one year I'll be standing here while Christian is fighting for his life in a Tulsa hospital." Things happen so fast and you never know when something so awful can happen to a loved one.
This was our family last Christmas day 2012, Christian being silly and enjoying his favorite holiday-
All of us, minus dad and Dustin for some reason
Blake & Christian (both of my brothers) and my adorable and silly niece Jadyn
Dustin's step dad Tony, my grandma and Christian playing a game
And here we are 1 year later, Christmas day 2013-
Being that we celebrated Christmas on Monday with my family, I honestly just wanted to stay home and relax Christmas day. I was totally fine with that, or so I thought. As I woke up Christmas morning and looked on Instagram and Facebook like I do every morning before I get out of bed, I saw everyones photos. Photos of trees, stockings, presents and families. I walked into the living room and just started bawling. I didn't think I would be sad, but I was. I wanted our families all there in our pajamas opening up presents and drinking our coffee. I just had to let it all out.
I decided it probably wasn't a good idea for me to just sit home and be sad, so we got cleaned up and went to eat a delicious lunch with Kristal and her family then went onto the hospital to visit Christian and my family. I felt much better as the day went on.
We all have so much to be thankful for. A roof over our heads, clothes, food, heat and we are so blessed that Christian is still with us, and we know that next year WILL be different. I envision a massive Christmas celebration next year with all of our family. We have some major making up to do.
I am not writing this to complain or anything of that nature, as I said above, I truly want to remember this whole week. I want to have it to look back on. It's all just a memory now, I am looking forward to our future and to see what 2014 brings us.
I really hope that you all had a wonderful and very merry Christmas with all your loved ones! Now it's time to ring in the new year :)
PS- Don't forget about the New Year Giveaway, everyone could use a little sparkle! Also, don't forget to start taking daily photos for the new Thankful Thursday link up starting next Thursday Jan 2!
Hope you all have a blessed weekend!