How far along: 19 weeks 2 days. I can't believe next week is already the half way mark!
Baby Size: A mango - 5.98 inches and 8.50 ounces
Weight gain: Not sure. At my last 16 week appointment in December I had gained 3 lbs
Maternity clothes: Nothing yet
Stretch marks: Nope
Sleep: Sleep is still great, can't wait for bed each night.
Gender: A sweet baby boy! Can't say we were surprised one bit, everyone in his family has boys. I can't wait to meet our sweet little Bennett Hayes in June <3
Movement: Yes, I started feeling him around week 17 and feel him daily now. Sometimes it's a pretty big movement, typically just little ones. Dustin actually got to feel him the end of week 18, which was awesome! He'd been waiting, it was a neat moment.
Best moment this week: We busted out the fetal doppler Sunday night and listened to Bennett's heartbeat for a while.
Looking forward to: Next week is our big anatomy scan. Looking forward to seeing him again and getting a little extra gender confirmation ;)
Food cravings: I am definitely craving more spicy things than usual, but I still crave my sweets too. I could probably live on cereal.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope, nothing really has this whole pregnancy
Labor Signs: Ha no..
What I miss: Honestly, if I had to pick something it'd be a cold turkey sandwich. I can't really say I miss anything though.
Symptoms: Besides my belly starting to grow a little and having to pee all the time, nothing.
Nursery: Dustin put the crib together this last weekend. We're in full nursery planning mode. If I had to explain our theme it would be Rustic antique with navy & gray. This is kind of my inspiration...
Belly Button in or out? In
Wedding rings on or off? On!
Mood: I feel pretty good, I can't really say I've been moody or anything..
I still have pinch me moments, am I seriously pregnant!? Yes, yes I am and I'm already through the first trimester. That went fast. I've been documenting this pregnancy each week, that will be saved in drafts, but I'm going to keep documenting in some sort of way. I thought I'd share a little bit of what's been happening lately and how I've been feeling. October 4th, the day we found out. No fancy stories here. 100% honest, I didn't think I was pregnant at all. I simply bought the test so I would see the negative, stop stressing and start my period so I could start tracking and paying better attention to my body. I was really shocked when I saw a positive, followed by 3 more positives & a trip to the drug store at 6 am. We'd just started trying again. We've tried for long periods in the last with no luck. Then over the last year and a half I have been through hell with my body. Diagnosed with anorexia, hypothalamic amenorrhea (didn't even have a cycle for a year), therapy, lots of healing, etc. I was so sure that I'd done too much permanent damage to my body to possibly ever actually conceive on my own. But God. October 5th I already had an appointment scheduled with my primary doctor, so he did a blood test to confirm. Definitely pregnant, about 5 weeks at this point. WOW! October 26th - 8 weeks 2 days Our first OB appointment and ultrasound. This was the coolest day of our lives. Hearing that sweet little babies heartbeat and seeing him/her on the screen. Just amazing. Our baby has been dubbed "Little Bear" because Dustin and I have always called each other bear, so it's a fitting name until we know the gender.
Right after the appointment, we found out we got the house we'd offered on and the 28 day closing had officially started. Let the fun begin. We'd just sold our first home and moved into a downtown apartment in June. Downtown living was cut a little short, but we couldn't be more excited about it :)
November 23rd - 12 weeks 2 days & moving day!
Our 2nd OB appointment just so happened to be on moving day, got to see sweet little bear again before we officially moved into our new family home. We spent the Thanksgiving holiday getting settled into our new home and spent Black Friday making our first big baby purchases- a car seat & crib.
This week we're 14 weeks, the baby is the size of a peach and I can't believe we're in the 2nd trimester already...
-How have I been feeling? Great! This pregnancy has not at all been like I always thought it would be. I've had very minimal sickness/nausea, very minimal fatigue, no crazy cravings or food aversions, nothing crazy at all really. Pregnancy constipation is no joke though, keeping it real. Middle of the night bathroom trips started immediately too. I know I am very lucky and don't take this easy pregnancy (so far) for granted one bit. I am ready to have a bump or something though, I want to actually feel pregnant if that makes sense. I know it's coming... ;)
Food has been a little tricky. My cravings changed quickly and I really had to learn to listen to my body and give myself grace. Things that I've always loved like coffee, green smoothies, salads, veggies + hummus, I couldn't eat/drink anymore. It was hard at first, but I had to just keep telling myself "it's just a phase and it will pass." It has passed too, mostly. This week I've started craving salads again and have even had a few cups of coffee. I missed my morning cup of coffee, it was so weird to not want it! I've craved milk, which is odd because I never drink it. Cereal and milk has been my favorite food this whole time!
-Will we find out the gender?
YES! We have the gender ultrasound scheduled 12/29 and will find out with our families NYE day. Can't wait!
-Feeling either way on the gender?
Not really, I feel kind of torn down the middle. Boys just kind of run in Dustin's family so I guess I feel a little more boy, just because of that. We do have names picked out, can't wait to pick one. 25 days and we'll know <3
A couple of weeks ago, Dustin and I had some pictures taken with Traci Michelle Photography. These pictures were so special to us and she really captured us in the best way. We've never had professional photos, not even our wedding photos. We were 22 and 19 when we got married and we paid for it on our own. Not hiring a photographer was my biggest and only regret from that special day. After 10 years of being a couple it, it was past due. We wanted some with Pixie too, to document the way life has been these last 9+ years, just the 3 of us <3
We just did one of her Fall Mini sessions, which was perfect for us right now. We seriously couldn't have been more happy with the results. If you're in the Tulsa area, I can't recommend her enough.
I'm excited for all things fall, just like every other girl in the world. The smells, weather, foods, colors, clothes, decor, etc. I love it all. However, I might be the only person who actually hates pumpkin and loves daylight savings time. Something about the early darkness and chill in the air is just cozy to me.
I've also been reminiscing about how amazing these last few months have been. Summer of 2016 was oh so good to us. As I was thinking back, I decided I needed to document all of the special things we did, trips we took, family we loved on, chapters we closed and the adventures we set out on.
-My 30th in Kansas City. A celebration my husband planned & all of our loved ones attended -A special visit from our favorite twins, our sweet Florida family -We sold our first home after 7 years of memories made there -Moved into our first ever apartment while we house shop, picked downtown Tulsa and it's been a blast -Our baby girl turned 10. Can't believe it's been 9 years since we rescued her -Spent a long weekend in Denver with Kim, such a beautiful treat
-Went to a Hillsong concert in OKC with Kristal, it really was life changing
-Had the enormous blessing of sharing my testimony on Dashing Dish
-Celebrated the 30th birthday of my bff/SIL with some of my favorite people
-Celebrated 8 years of marriage with my best friend at a delicious place downtown called Bull in the Alley
-Spent a week in Rodanthe, NC on the beach with 20+ family members. It was the best trip ever
-Developed a new love for reading, this has been my fave read this year so far
I wish it was that simple. People with eating disorders often struggle with drinking their calories. I definitely have a problem with this. I love coffee, but I always make my drinks at home or stick to my trusty SKVL from Starbucks. I like having control & knowing what's in it. Since moving to downtown Tulsa though, I've really wanted to try some of what the awesome local coffee shops downtown have to offer. Easier said than done. My therapist gives me challenges, this time it's to try 1 latte a week in between our next meeting. When I'm on vacation or with friends, it's a lot easier ordering fun treats. When I'm on my own in my normal day to day routine, I always talk myself out of it. I decided today was the first day, even though I'm already a week and a half behind. No more talking myself out of it, it's Friday and I'm going for it. First up, Foolish Things Coffee Co. I'm standing at the counter waiting to place my order and a women comes up to the counter beside me, checking out the yummy treats displayed. She strikes up a conversation with me. Lady: "That Golden Graham s'mores bar could feed 4 people, did you see this?!" Me: "Yeah it's pretty big, looks delicious though" Lady: "It does. Golden Grahams were my favorite cereal as a kid. I haven't had cereal since I was 14!" Me: "Oh gosh really, you should totally go for it!" Lady: "Can you imagine how many calories are in that thing though, probably like a thousand" Me: "Yeah, but you can share it. It won't kill you, if you're craving it, go for it!" Lady: "My business partner who's over at the table with me would be shocked if I came back with that. We own a fitness company. She'd definitely make me do extra burpees for that." Me: "It's not a big deal, you should go for it!" Lady: "You're right, I'm getting it!" I place my order. A 12 oz iced latte with some of their homemade vanilla syrup. Full fat milk & not sugar free syrup, big deal for me but I've got this. I'm going to enjoy this. Lady steps up to the counter and orders. "You know what, I've totally changed my order. I'll take an iced latte with almond milk and lavender syrup." I guess she just couldn't do it. My order then took about 15 minutes and I was going to be late if I didn't hit the road quickly, they tell me it was coming in less than a minute. They called my name and handed me a hot latte. I ordered iced, but I'm out of time. I take it and quickly head to work, not even sure if I'm going to be on time now. (I HATE being late!) So many thoughts were running through my mind during this 45 min time span on this Friday morning in August. I wanted to cry. I wanted to tell this lady the significance of this latte order for me, tell her to please just stop & enjoy the cereal bar. Tell her she is saying everything to me I'm so desperately trying to forget. I felt anxiety. I felt defeated in that moment. I was stressed because I was watching the clock, and then running late. I was bummed after all of that, my order was wrong. So many emotions. BUT, I refuse to let the devil take over this moment. He tried, he tried to ruin it for me but I will not allow it. I was driving almost 80 mph hour on the way to work, praying the whole time. Yeah, praying for safety and to not see a cop... but mostly that these feelings would quickly be replaced with happiness and love. Praying for peace & strength, to not let this morning discourage me in anyway. I'm sitting here enjoying my latte now, thinking about where #2 is going to come from :)
Happy Friday. I hope you're enjoying a yummy treat today.